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sometimes i asked myself whether things i heard affect me most, or the things i see. 
im still thinking about it, but my heart tells me that whatever i heard affects me most. let me do some experiment someday, or maybe tmr. 
sometimes, the more i hear things, the more i understand and most of the time hearing suckystuffs can screw my emotions real badly and i can even think about it the whole entire day which really suck(like what i said, suckystuffs. it is indeed sucky) but again, seeing is believeing. seeing it, means feeling the pain more. seriously, im mad, now that i saw it(i give a fark&i dont give a fark), &i want it(more),i dont want it(at all). so bitched man& very hazel. cos its yet another contradiction.
ouch. yes, ouch. :(  *i need to luff at my sillyness sometimes.*

6hours of sitting down at nydc eating non stop. &they said i was being emo for sitting there alone, from 1.30-258. and from 315 to 3.30. and from then onwards bffrasul&gf&bffmom&hyde came to look for me. how emo was that? i jus didnt want to attend tutorial alone, so i went mani and then sitchilleatdrink over at nydc la. 

the world is indeed very corrupted. frends are using the sameoldjoke on ppl. damn it. why they just dont ever get sick of it? madfrends i have. 

PEOPLE CHANGE! im madranting again! hey, its not a sin. no its not a sin. 
i really feel sick in the head now. ouchouchouch!

okay, i need to do something to stop those frends from jacking me alr. its getting irritating. i dun quite want to get pissed. but then again, when ll hazel ever get pissed?! i bet the (MAD&CRAZY)emotionbrainsheart bank in me hardly get triggered that badly! cos im always that crazy and happy. HOH. but i still feel like i wanna slap them alr(if i can).

ps: i saved on my facial. cos i did it at home! finally i save up. feel so good about it! hooo.

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hes there talking and abandoning the windows. 
no frendsforever like what. no, i cant see frensforever in that.
no, frends dont exist in this scenario. it cant even.
grrr.

then i missed the shopping trip today, cos i culdnt wake! and as i feel that i need to be bitchy jus a moment ago, sexfan msged me. hero la seriously. msged me at the right time.
exbf became notfren then became goodfren. hes superfunny la! i seriously think he made me luff like one madchild inside my bro room la pls. hes so funny. stupid sexfan. sex = love in the pants. 

at least msging a fren like him made my day. not that bad. made me wanting to drop off the idea of becoming bitchy.  (:
no more bitching about him. i think its all fair alr! lol. but hes still the sexfan i know. a leopard ll never change its spots.

ps: i have been luffing since 1130. and now is 1221. very madchild alr.
oh&ive been thinking this, why not me?!
shld have yelled at you, yelled those words at you. 
im so bitched. GOD SAVE ME!